People tell you what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Who hasn’t heard that a million times before? And when you hear it- it doesn’t give you much consolation. It’s just something people say.
Yeah- you’ll be stronger- but it still hurts. It still sucks…
Those words only feel great when the time has passed and you have in fact become stronger. It’s liberating.
I’ve recently felt this way when I’ve found myself smiling more just thinking about how blessed I am and how much I feel that I’ve grown. I’m by no means exactly where I want to be in life yet, but I can say I’m truly content with where I’m at.
I’ve come a long way since my most recent breakup. Here are some steps I had to go through before feeling stronger:
I’ve accepted it.
I let go of the bitterness.
I’ve spent time on myself and with myself.
I’ve learned that true happiness comes within and that I don’t need you. And it isn’t so much that I ever needed you, but for the longest time you were a big contributor to my happiness- that’s just what happens when you love someone.
I can’t say if I’ve truly moved on. But I’m on the road to recovery and I haven’t stopped moving. I’ve fallen but have lifted myself back up. Your memories still chase after me from time to time. I let them catch up to me and then pass me by. I don’t know what’s at the end of the road, I don’t know if you’ll be there or how often we’ll cross paths.
I used to be your biggest fan- now I’m a pretty big fan of myself and I’m routing for me. I’m still on my journey to reaching my goals but I’m enjoying it. And I’m going to get there someday whether you’re by my side or not. I’m stronger because of you- so thanks for breaking my heart.
This video “The Last Song” is fitting for this post because it’s about letting go and this may not be “the last song” but hopefully the last post revolving around him. This song is a sweet goodbye.